Farewell to the Fairground

Lights still in our eyes,
we're leaving this whole fairground behind,
it's a dream that's going cold.
Circus never dies, the act forever haunts these skies,
i know we cannot stay.

Farewell to the fairground,
these rides aren't working anymore.
Goodbye to this dead town,
until the ice begins to thaw.

This place used to gleam,
i see it in my hopeful dreams,
now i had to get away.
We move towards the stars,
and all that we touch becomes ours,
lets keep warm till it's day.

Farewell to the fairground,
these rides aren't working anymore.
Goodbye to this dead town,
until the ice begins to thaw.

We'll head south, just hold my hand now.
I feel like i'm casting off my clothes
and i'm running through the snow towards the sunset
and i'm always with you.

Keep on running,
keep keep on running,
there's no place like home,
there's no place like home.

Farewell to the fairground,
these rides aren't working anymore.
Goodbye to this dead town,
until the ice begins to thaw.
We'll head south, just hold my hand now, i feel like i'm casting off my clothes, and i'm running through the snow towards the sunset, where i'm always with you

Real Life

For a minute I was lost...I looked away.
For a minute I was lost...I looked away.
I was looking for a home...I was looking for a home.

For a minute I was lost...I looked away.
The trouble was I was alone.
The trouble was I was alone.

You might think I'm still that way, it's only natural.
It was a past life thing.
It was a past life thing.
It wasn't anything at all.

For a minute I was lost...I looked away.
For a minute I was lost...I looked away.
I was looking for a road...I was looking for a road.

For a minute I was lost...I looked away.
My destination was unknown...My destination was unknown.
My destination was unknown...My destination was unknown.

You might think I'm still that way, it's only natural.
It was a past life thing.
It was a past life thing.
It wasn't anything at all.

The road to self-discovery

can also be the road to self-destruction.

Thanatos:

(Greek mythology) the Greek personification of death; son of Nyx
Greek mythology - the mythology of the ancient Greeks

(psychoanalysis) an unconscious urge to die
death instinct, death wish

Favorite Quote from Se7en

"What sick ridiculous puppets we are /
and what gross little stage we dance on /
What fun we have dancing and fucking /
Not a care in the world /
Not knowing that we are nothing /

We are not what was intended."

El Proceso de Duelo

I wonder...when do you stop grieving a lost love and when is it acceptable to find a new one? What determines the moment when it's okay to find happiness again and to stop feeling guilty for the mistakes made in the past? When do you stop being tied to someone completely? And most important of all...why is it not okay to move on after you give the person exactly what he/she wanted, which was to be let go. What other requirements should you meet in order to proceed to that next step which we so long for?

I suppose that sense of ownership should fade as the months fly by, but there will always be that feeling of greed and selfishness, which I find totally unnecessary and unfair.

I finished all the steps to my grieving process, and I feel as free as a bird, yet I do not need to tie myself again and will avoid making that mistake again for as long as I can. So then I ask... who are you to judge what I do or how I feel?

Do you still grieve for me?

"Life is much too short to feel intoxicated."

Ambling Alp

Now kid, I know I haven't been a perfect man
And I've avoided doing things I know I can
But if I learned one thing, the tattoo on my arm will burn into my thumb
It would be that

You must stick up for yourself, son
Never mind what anybody else done
Stick up for yourself, son
Never mind what anybody else done
Stick up for yourself, son
Never mind what anybody else done

Now Old Man Schmelling was a formidable foe
But Ambling Alp was, too, at least that's what I'm told
But if you learn one thing, you've learned it well
Until you must get past yourself
They'll run but they can't hide

You must stick up for yourself, son
Never mind what anybody else done
Stick up for yourself, son
Never mind what anybody else done
Stick up for yourself, son
Never mind what anybody else done

And when those thunder clouds are crying in the skies, in the skies
And when those fireflies keep shining in your eyes, in your eyes
Keep your mind for the time, with your ass on the line
Keep your feet, feet sliding to the side, to the side

Now, the world can be an unfair place at times
But your lows will have their complement of highs
And if anyone should cheat you, take advantage of, or beat you
Raise your head and wear your wounds with pride

You must stick up for yourself, son
Never mind what anybody else done
Stick up for yourself, son
Never mind what anybody else done
Stick up for yourself, son
Never mind what anybody else done